have you ever listened to this song by the eagles?

hole in the world tonight
some you may be thinking, "soft rock, uh, not for me." give it a chance before you bag it all together. anyway, as i was getting ready this song came on the radio. i know it--i have known it for a long time--ever since i was old enough to change the radio dial to the "secular" stations, but i had never really listened to the words until that day. i live in this world with billions of others, but somehow it's possible to live as if i were the only person to exist. i don't want to be separate, i don't want to contribute to the emptiness.

we've been on a journey this past year rediscovering faith & beliefs. through this my eyes & ears have opened. i am taking in everything in a completely new way. in the past everything had a category, black/white/gray, secular/christian, good/bad. why? don't know. it just happened. i grew up in a christian home, but my parents didn't sit me down & run me through a list. i formed that list on my own based on lots of things. family of course, school (private for 10 out of the 13), friends... you know you have all the same influences. i had never asked why or tested it or anything. now? now i test & question everything. i like it that way. i feel alive. i'm not taking stuff for face value.

we're doing well--"livin' la vida loca" here in marion, in. jes & roxy hang at the house a lot (still no job, but an interview tomorrow) & they take walks when the weather is good. jus is working his booty off at cwc--doing an incredible job! to all those who still keep up with our blog, "thanks." to those who gave up on us long ago, "sorry." have a great day everyone.